Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Hotter than HELLo Kitty! Finally a PIC of ME

Now that is one hot tamale and I am not talking about ME!  It would be one thing if we lived in Arizona or some desert hell but no, we live in Missouri.  You would think with all of the sweating I am doing I would be losing weight.  But my fingers feel like small round sausages.  My dear daughter wanted me to lay out with her today by the swamp.  (my pool) I am not feeling the swamp calling my name today.  It is a light shade of green.  Almost looks like toxic waste.  And it is like bath water.  

I went to the store today and got all the goodies the dietician suggested to make my band "my friend".  I have to wait until the 11th to get it squeezy tight again.  So right now I could probably eat a big mac just fine.  Not that I really would want too. I imagine I would vomit it up just from my body saying NO WAY JOSE.  In fact, when we are traveling I have tried on several occasions to eat McD just to be easy with the family and EVERY time I throw it up.  Wonder if anyone else has that problem. It's like the makers of the LAP BAND put some sort of chemical in it that makes McDonalds come right back up.  But I can eat a Krispy Kreme Kruller.  What gives I wonder?  

I saw a post that said we need to post more pics of ourselves so y'all can get a better idea of who they are looking for.  A friend of mine took some pics of us at dinner.  Not great clarity but enough you get the idea.  I hope one day to be in the front of the picture instead of always using my family has the human shield.  Like people don't know I am fat...my goodness.  It just feels so natural to be in the back...hiding.  I can't wait to pose like my dear daughter does.  Hand on hip and big ol smile on her face.  All 5' 10 1/2 inches of her.  And she still is growing.  I digressed.  

I want that picture standing next to her...proud...not judging myself for my belly or double chins (notice I said chins).  I am a photographer (semi-pro...) and I love being BEHIND the camera.  And I get so frustrated with clients when they talk about how "fat" they look.  I never see it in other people.  Just myself.  I see happy family moments and I don't focus on if they have a double chin or what not.  Why can't I do that for me???  I'm ready for that confidence.  Bring it on "lap band friend"!

So here you go folks...a pic of me and my family...(and I am not sure what happened to my husbands eyes.)



  1. Babe - you're gorgeous...I look forward to more pics of you in FRONT!

  2. You are so sweet. I am so excited about meeting you. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your blog!

  3. Deb, you are beautiful. No more hiding!!

  4. That's a great family photo! I'm glad you decided to share more photos and I know what you mean about hiding behind people. I have done that for a long time. Also, I tried to position my neck in the perfect way to make me look the least fat. No more! Or, at least not much more!

    So what goodies did the dietitian have you buy?

  5. Deb, I am looking forward to meeting you in Chicago! I do understand about the photo stuff. I am finally feeling more confident with pictures, but I still see where I need to improve my body. Don't know if that will ever go away.

  6. What a lovely family photo!! I agree with the others too, this should be your last hiding picture!!